Today is my thirtieth birthday. I am now officially a middle age man. I can already feel the mid-life crisis shadow over me. I had already start asking though questions, such as meaning of life, self value and the identity problem. I remember when I turned twenty, I had a melancholy for no longer a teenage. It took me quite a long time to get over it. This time, I don’t have the time to feel depress. There are so many things I still want to do and time is running out. I can only prioritize the task and do the important one first. I have to accept the reality that some dreams I will have to give up forever. Looking back the past 10 years in my life, I had accomplished a lot of things. I don’t have any unaccomplished tasks, since I didn’t set any 10 years goal in 20. It seems that life is just like a roller coaster ride, all I can do is fasten the seat belt and hold tight. Looking forward to the next 10 years, I have to ask myself should I set goals to myself. Ten year plan is different from new year resolution. Most of the time, the 10 year plan is just dreams without any action plan. Ten year is too long a time span to plan properly. I don’t even know where I will be, what will I do in 2 years, how can I plan further ahead with no visibility? Maybe I should just sit back and relax, let God or whoever up above plan the best for me.