Snow storm

Vancouver is having its first snow fall of this winter.  The whole city is covered under snow.   The road condition is really bad with low visibility.  The street is empty, no one want to go outside since it is too dangerous to drive.  So I am trapped at home for the whole day due to the bad weather.  If the snow storm comes one day later, we will have a snow holiday.  Why can’t we have the snow storm on weekdays instead of weekend?

Since snow has start falling, my ski season officially begins.  Luckily I just took my ski to the ski shop for waxing yesterday.  I can pick it up on Friday, so I am ready to hit the mountain next weekend.  I am sure there will be a long line up in the ski shop next week.

弓和禪 – Eugen Herrigel

zen of archary 禪是一個很玄的東西﹐雖然我在香港長大﹐自幼耳濡目染中國文化思想﹐對這個佛家的名詞並不陌生﹐可是總不能很確切地說出禪到底是什麼。或許正如很多人說一樣﹐禪並不能像西方哲學般有系統地學習﹐只能身體力行去感受並領悟其中的道理。我在逛網上的書藉論壇時﹐很有緣地遇上這本「弓和禪 」的簡介﹐還附有網上免費版本的連結。可能我開始愛上射擊運動的關係﹐對於講弓道心法的書藉有興趣。弓箭與槍同樣也是射靶﹐抱著這本書可能對射擊有幫助的心態﹐便用了三數小時看畢全書。

讀完後上網看多點資料﹐發現原來此書的來頭不少。原本出版已超過半個世紀的歷史﹐最近才被翻譯為中文。從一個西方哲學家的角度﹐去看東方禪學的奧秘。作者Eugen Herrigel是二十年代旅居日本的德國哲學家﹐跟弓道大師透過射箭修研禪學達六年之久。他是把禪學帶到歐洲的第一人﹐這本書則他的最重要著作﹐記錄他學習弓道六年的經歷﹐述描從中對禪的領會。日本文化中有很多不同的道﹐弓道﹐劍道﹐柔道﹐花道﹐茶道。每一種道好像與禪也有關連﹐都是讓修習者內省靜心﹐體會禪的最終奧義。

弓道並不只是射箭準確的技術﹐ 而是一套生活的哲學。修練的過程看起來好像沒有意義﹐但是只要耐心遵從大師的指示﹐最後就能夠學到大師的心法。作者先花了一整年時間去學習呼吸﹐再花一整年時間去學習拉弓。每天只是重覆做同樣的動作﹐一箭也沒有發出過。到了第三年才學習放箭﹐第四年才把射向箭靶。作者在過程中對大師的教法充滿懷疑﹐但他堅持到最後通過弓道考試。學懂弓人合一的禪理﹐不去計較射不射不中﹐射箭是一件再也簡單不過的事情。

其實讀完這本書﹐我對禪好像理解多一點﹐又好像依然是完全不理解。 不過有一點可以肯定﹐書中說弓道的心法﹐對我練習射擊很有幫助。拉弓與舉槍瞄準一樣﹐呼吸十分重要﹐只要心緒寧靜控制好呼吸﹐槍管自然會瞄得平穩。放箭與扣機板的道理一樣﹐越想射中就會越射不中。心中不要執著想射中高分﹐只要盡力去做好一個完美的射擊動作﹐就自自然然會射中靶心。箭要在毫無考慮的迅間放出﹐在不經心的情況下自然飛出去﹐不能注意手部的微細動作﹐才能進入忘我的境界。我在射擊時也有同樣的體會﹐有時我會專注手指的動作﹐儘可能順滑地完成扣機板動作。這時雖然可以射中第十環﹐但總是覺得有點地方不對勁。另一些時候我會在不為意下扣了機板﹐子彈好像是自己飛出去一樣。同樣也是射中第十環﹐卻有一個完全不同的覺感﹐一個很實在很完滿的感覺﹐就像書中說如同積雪在葉子上滑落一樣。也許我也如作者在練弓道中途般﹐只是在自作聰明地去理解禪﹐並不是真正的領悟射藝的精神。大師並不是教授學生弓道的技巧﹐而是以自身為榜樣讓學生自已發現弓道的秘密。不過很可惜沒有大師收我為徒﹐只能看著書本自行摸索。據說日本也有銃道﹐以射槍來修練心靈的學問。不過明治以後日本禁止民間私藏槍械﹐大慨銃道已成為失傳了的藝術。

End of exile

Today I moved cubicle.  I moved back upstairs to the department I belongs to.  I ended my life living as an exile on loan to another department.  The physical environment is better.  The new cubicle is closer to the window, quieter and has more sunlight.  It is much better comparing to the old cubicle locating in the entrance of the aisle, which is noisy and dark.  The psychological environment is also better.  My department is much more organize and well managed than the on loan department.

It was like constantly fighting fire downstairs due to lack of planning.  The project is a disaster.  We are still finding bugs on the last day before tape out and push out the schedule.  It is very likely the manager will just say that’s enough and tape out the device once the last known bug fixed.  It is almost guarantee there will be more bugs hiding in the device if the device is in a constinous state of flux.  The device should reach a stable stage with no new bugs for a couple of weeks before tape out.  Not enough time to do testing earlier is not an excuse.  If the device is not properly tested, it is not ready to tape out.  They should either move out the tape out or put more resource in the planning phase.  Saying we will finish the tasks with best effort is just an excuse being too lazy to make a proper plan.

Once you heard the word “best effort”, you can pretty much write off quality in the work.  You can qualify the features, the scope, the priority, the schedule, but you can’t qualify what exactly is “best effort”.  At the end of day in the eye of the managers, the only measurement of “best effort” is long working hours.  It is a known fact that long working hours is not correlated to the quality of the finish product.  It is just a waste of time.  If time is tight, estimate how much work can be done, prioritize the work and do it right.  Sometimes we have to admit, we just don’t have enough time.  If we really can’t  move the schedule and we have to work over time, we should incorporate the over time into the schedule.  Be honest and say the project requires 60 hours a week to finish on time.  Don’t underestimate the work and try to sneak overtime into the schedule as a unpleasant surprise.

Canadian Gunnutz

Canadian Gunnutz is a probably the most informative forum for Canadian shooters.  A forum is a virtual meeting place in the net.  It is hard to meet people loves shooting in real life, shooting is not a common sports after all.  It is important for the nurturing of marksmanship by talking fellow shooters, exchange tips for the skills or experience with different firearms.  The website also has a buy and sell board, let the members can exchange their firearms.  I think it is probably the biggest 2nd hand firearm resources in Canada.

It is fun to read the endless debate on which gun is better.  I don’t know whether is it people grow to love the guns they own or they buy the guns the because they love them.  It is easier to compare different models.  you can always look at the numbers and objectively determine which one is the right gun for the right task.  It is a lot harder to compare same model from different manufacture.  I have been looking to get a 1911, but there are over 20 makers fro 1911.  Even within the same maker, they offer a dozens of variations.  A custom made 1911 can goes from several thousands to several tens of thousands.  Production 1911 sells from eight to twenty hundreds.  Chinese copy is selling for as long as four hundreds.  I think after reading all the postings, take balance between price and quality, I will go for a mid-range Kimber 1911 for the best value.

Parting with my toys

I have been collecting toys for many years. Over the years I bought boxes after boxes of toys and I end up having two display cabinet full of toys at home. It is time to part with them, some of them. There are a few reasons driving to say goodbye to my beloved toys.

First, I am getting marry, move on to the next stage of life. Pat always complain it is too boyish for a middle age man to buy toys. I do not dispute this claim, buying toys is indeed a boyish behavior. It is a treat for the child in my heart. I agree that I should cut back on my toy consumption.

Second, I am running out of display place. Both of my display cabinets are full. I have to free up space for new toys. I don’t want to merely putting the toys in storage. Toys are collectibles made for display. If you don’t display them, you are really owning them. One way or the other, why not sell them to recoup some cash.

Third, I am a perfectionist in toy collection. If I collect a toy, I would collect the complete series. I am an all or none person. If I couldn’t get the complete series, or at least a “complete collection” using my hard to describe definition, I would rather no getting any at all. My preference changes over time. A series may start off with some very decent toys, but later on the quality deteriorate so much that I have to drop the series. There is no point to keep just the first few toys in the series.

Forth, toys, especially die-cast toys do not depreciate much. I can sell them on ebay very close to the price I pay for a few years ago. Basically, I payed the shipping and have them displayed in my cabinet for free for the mean time. Toy in a seal box not only will not depreciate, the price could actually go up quite a bit depending on the supply and demand. Too bad that I don’t like keeping the toys in the boxes. When I buy a toy, I want to take it out, feel it and display it. Toys are not an investment after all. It would be silly to buy toys and wait for the price to go up. The market prince for the most “profitable” toy I have went up 3 times. I am seriously thinking whether or not I should sell it and take the profit.

Gundams One Year War Mobile Suites / Rx-78-2 vs MS-06S

img_0842.JPG Z Gundam MS / Evangelion

img_0843.JPG UC MS /Gundam Seed Destiny / Char’s Counter Attack

img_0844.JPG UC MSV / Macross GBP / Transformers

img_0851.JPG Macross: VF-1A Angel Bird, VF-1A Super / VE-1, VF-0A, SDF-1, VF-1A CF

img_0852.JPG Macross: VF-1S, SV-51, YF-19, VF-0S / VF-1A Low Vis

img_0853.JPG Macross: YF-19, VF-11, YF-22 / VF-1J Stealth, VF-1A Max

img_0854.JPG Macross: VF-1A Woodands, VB-1 / VT-1, VF-1D, VF-1A CF

img_0855.JPG Macross: VF-1J vs VF-1S / Skull Team

img_0856.JPG Macross : Max vs Milia