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弓和禪 – Eugen Herrigel

zen of archary 禪是一個很玄的東西﹐雖然我在香港長大﹐自幼耳濡目染中國文化思想﹐對這個佛家的名詞並不陌生﹐可是總不能很確切地說出禪到底是什麼。或許正如很多人說一樣﹐禪並不能像西方哲學般有系統地學習﹐只能身體力行去感受並領悟其中的道理。我在逛網上的書藉論壇時﹐很有緣地遇上這本「弓和禪 」的簡介﹐還附有網上免費版本的連結。可能我開始愛上射擊運動的關係﹐對於講弓道心法的書藉有興趣。弓箭與槍同樣也是射靶﹐抱著這本書可能對射擊有幫助的心態﹐便用了三數小時看畢全書。

讀完後上網看多點資料﹐發現原來此書的來頭不少。原本出版已超過半個世紀的歷史﹐最近才被翻譯為中文。從一個西方哲學家的角度﹐去看東方禪學的奧秘。作者Eugen Herrigel是二十年代旅居日本的德國哲學家﹐跟弓道大師透過射箭修研禪學達六年之久。他是把禪學帶到歐洲的第一人﹐這本書則他的最重要著作﹐記錄他學習弓道六年的經歷﹐述描從中對禪的領會。日本文化中有很多不同的道﹐弓道﹐劍道﹐柔道﹐花道﹐茶道。每一種道好像與禪也有關連﹐都是讓修習者內省靜心﹐體會禪的最終奧義。

弓道並不只是射箭準確的技術﹐ 而是一套生活的哲學。修練的過程看起來好像沒有意義﹐但是只要耐心遵從大師的指示﹐最後就能夠學到大師的心法。作者先花了一整年時間去學習呼吸﹐再花一整年時間去學習拉弓。每天只是重覆做同樣的動作﹐一箭也沒有發出過。到了第三年才學習放箭﹐第四年才把射向箭靶。作者在過程中對大師的教法充滿懷疑﹐但他堅持到最後通過弓道考試。學懂弓人合一的禪理﹐不去計較射不射不中﹐射箭是一件再也簡單不過的事情。

其實讀完這本書﹐我對禪好像理解多一點﹐又好像依然是完全不理解。 不過有一點可以肯定﹐書中說弓道的心法﹐對我練習射擊很有幫助。拉弓與舉槍瞄準一樣﹐呼吸十分重要﹐只要心緒寧靜控制好呼吸﹐槍管自然會瞄得平穩。放箭與扣機板的道理一樣﹐越想射中就會越射不中。心中不要執著想射中高分﹐只要盡力去做好一個完美的射擊動作﹐就自自然然會射中靶心。箭要在毫無考慮的迅間放出﹐在不經心的情況下自然飛出去﹐不能注意手部的微細動作﹐才能進入忘我的境界。我在射擊時也有同樣的體會﹐有時我會專注手指的動作﹐儘可能順滑地完成扣機板動作。這時雖然可以射中第十環﹐但總是覺得有點地方不對勁。另一些時候我會在不為意下扣了機板﹐子彈好像是自己飛出去一樣。同樣也是射中第十環﹐卻有一個完全不同的覺感﹐一個很實在很完滿的感覺﹐就像書中說如同積雪在葉子上滑落一樣。也許我也如作者在練弓道中途般﹐只是在自作聰明地去理解禪﹐並不是真正的領悟射藝的精神。大師並不是教授學生弓道的技巧﹐而是以自身為榜樣讓學生自已發現弓道的秘密。不過很可惜沒有大師收我為徒﹐只能看著書本自行摸索。據說日本也有銃道﹐以射槍來修練心靈的學問。不過明治以後日本禁止民間私藏槍械﹐大慨銃道已成為失傳了的藝術。

End of exile

Today I moved cubicle.  I moved back upstairs to the department I belongs to.  I ended my life living as an exile on loan to another department.  The physical environment is better.  The new cubicle is closer to the window, quieter and has more sunlight.  It is much better comparing to the old cubicle locating in the entrance of the aisle, which is noisy and dark.  The psychological environment is also better.  My department is much more organize and well managed than the on loan department.

It was like constantly fighting fire downstairs due to lack of planning.  The project is a disaster.  We are still finding bugs on the last day before tape out and push out the schedule.  It is very likely the manager will just say that’s enough and tape out the device once the last known bug fixed.  It is almost guarantee there will be more bugs hiding in the device if the device is in a constinous state of flux.  The device should reach a stable stage with no new bugs for a couple of weeks before tape out.  Not enough time to do testing earlier is not an excuse.  If the device is not properly tested, it is not ready to tape out.  They should either move out the tape out or put more resource in the planning phase.  Saying we will finish the tasks with best effort is just an excuse being too lazy to make a proper plan.

Once you heard the word “best effort”, you can pretty much write off quality in the work.  You can qualify the features, the scope, the priority, the schedule, but you can’t qualify what exactly is “best effort”.  At the end of day in the eye of the managers, the only measurement of “best effort” is long working hours.  It is a known fact that long working hours is not correlated to the quality of the finish product.  It is just a waste of time.  If time is tight, estimate how much work can be done, prioritize the work and do it right.  Sometimes we have to admit, we just don’t have enough time.  If we really can’t  move the schedule and we have to work over time, we should incorporate the over time into the schedule.  Be honest and say the project requires 60 hours a week to finish on time.  Don’t underestimate the work and try to sneak overtime into the schedule as a unpleasant surprise.

Canadian Gunnutz

Canadian Gunnutz is a probably the most informative forum for Canadian shooters.  A forum is a virtual meeting place in the net.  It is hard to meet people loves shooting in real life, shooting is not a common sports after all.  It is important for the nurturing of marksmanship by talking fellow shooters, exchange tips for the skills or experience with different firearms.  The website also has a buy and sell board, let the members can exchange their firearms.  I think it is probably the biggest 2nd hand firearm resources in Canada.

It is fun to read the endless debate on which gun is better.  I don’t know whether is it people grow to love the guns they own or they buy the guns the because they love them.  It is easier to compare different models.  you can always look at the numbers and objectively determine which one is the right gun for the right task.  It is a lot harder to compare same model from different manufacture.  I have been looking to get a 1911, but there are over 20 makers fro 1911.  Even within the same maker, they offer a dozens of variations.  A custom made 1911 can goes from several thousands to several tens of thousands.  Production 1911 sells from eight to twenty hundreds.  Chinese copy is selling for as long as four hundreds.  I think after reading all the postings, take balance between price and quality, I will go for a mid-range Kimber 1911 for the best value.

Parting with my toys

I have been collecting toys for many years. Over the years I bought boxes after boxes of toys and I end up having two display cabinet full of toys at home. It is time to part with them, some of them. There are a few reasons driving to say goodbye to my beloved toys.

First, I am getting marry, move on to the next stage of life. Pat always complain it is too boyish for a middle age man to buy toys. I do not dispute this claim, buying toys is indeed a boyish behavior. It is a treat for the child in my heart. I agree that I should cut back on my toy consumption.

Second, I am running out of display place. Both of my display cabinets are full. I have to free up space for new toys. I don’t want to merely putting the toys in storage. Toys are collectibles made for display. If you don’t display them, you are really owning them. One way or the other, why not sell them to recoup some cash.

Third, I am a perfectionist in toy collection. If I collect a toy, I would collect the complete series. I am an all or none person. If I couldn’t get the complete series, or at least a “complete collection” using my hard to describe definition, I would rather no getting any at all. My preference changes over time. A series may start off with some very decent toys, but later on the quality deteriorate so much that I have to drop the series. There is no point to keep just the first few toys in the series.

Forth, toys, especially die-cast toys do not depreciate much. I can sell them on ebay very close to the price I pay for a few years ago. Basically, I payed the shipping and have them displayed in my cabinet for free for the mean time. Toy in a seal box not only will not depreciate, the price could actually go up quite a bit depending on the supply and demand. Too bad that I don’t like keeping the toys in the boxes. When I buy a toy, I want to take it out, feel it and display it. Toys are not an investment after all. It would be silly to buy toys and wait for the price to go up. The market prince for the most “profitable” toy I have went up 3 times. I am seriously thinking whether or not I should sell it and take the profit.

Gundams One Year War Mobile Suites / Rx-78-2 vs MS-06S

img_0842.JPG Z Gundam MS / Evangelion

img_0843.JPG UC MS /Gundam Seed Destiny / Char’s Counter Attack

img_0844.JPG UC MSV / Macross GBP / Transformers

img_0851.JPG Macross: VF-1A Angel Bird, VF-1A Super / VE-1, VF-0A, SDF-1, VF-1A CF

img_0852.JPG Macross: VF-1S, SV-51, YF-19, VF-0S / VF-1A Low Vis

img_0853.JPG Macross: YF-19, VF-11, YF-22 / VF-1J Stealth, VF-1A Max

img_0854.JPG Macross: VF-1A Woodands, VB-1 / VT-1, VF-1D, VF-1A CF

img_0855.JPG Macross: VF-1J vs VF-1S / Skull Team

img_0856.JPG Macross : Max vs Milia

基督教思想史第一部 – 第六章﹕新教神學的發展

十九世紀新教的神學發展主要分為三個主流﹐正統神學時期﹐虔敬主義和啟蒙運動。

正統神學

正統神學整理宗教改革時期﹐眾多神學家提出的新觀念﹐並將這些觀念系統化﹐建立一套可以與天主教神學分庭抗儷的神學基礎。基督教後來的神學發展﹐不論是自由主義神學或是虔敬主義神學﹐也是針對正統神學來提出批評改進。

正統神學肯定神學與哲學密切的關係﹐探討神學課題時不能完全抹殺理性。神學中不可或缺的理性﹐正與哲學中的理性相通。儘管今天有不少神學家反對哲學﹐認為那些是異端邪說。當那神學家論述他們的神學時﹐我們卻可以追尋他們的神學觀念中﹐那些部份是源於他們批評為異端的哲學家。天主教神學與哲學互相補足﹐但基督教則對哲學抱疑懷敵視的態度。正統神學提出教義的兩大支柱﹐分別為通過理性使用哲學的方法去檢證﹐以及直接從神聽到的啟示。兩者相輔雙成﹐理性讓我們明白教義的正確性﹐啟示給與我們信心來相信這些教義。

正統神學發展出兩個重要原則﹐分別是聖經的權威和救贖的教義。聖經的權威來自三方面﹐第一是外在因素如歷史預言性等﹐第二是內在因素如內容乎合道德﹐第三是聖靈的證明。當聖經成為教義的權威時﹐神學不再是人與神的關係﹐而成為一套神頒給人的律法。聖經的權威產生一個問題﹐就是若果神的律法具客觀性﹐理論上非教徒也可以詮譯聖經﹐解釋並建立一套神學系統。只要明白聖經文字的意思﹐每一個人也可以是神學家。聖經中包含很多教義﹐那我們如何分辨那些教義與救贖有關﹐那一部份是核心教義呢。理論上若果聖經是由神默示﹐則不應分核心或非核心教義。可是若果全部教義同樣重要﹐一般信徒沒有可能明白所有教義﹐亦沒有可能遵從教義去作出決定。

虔敬主義

在今天的社會裏﹐虔敬主義住住含貶義﹐成為偽善和道德佬的代名詞。虔敬主義強調人與神的關係﹐忽略智識性上對教義的認知。虔敬主義對社會文化有很大影響﹐他們著重社會道德價值﹐前往第三世界的傳教工作﹐將西方文化帶到當地。虔敬主義認為神學是套教徒應該遵守的規條﹐不相信基督教並遵守教條﹐就不可能認識神學。教會並不只教徒聚集聽聖言的地方﹐同時是教徒日常生活的全部。正統神學認為在日常生活中﹐人有很多行為在道德上屬於中性﹐在神眼中沒有善惡之分﹐人可以自由擇選做這或做那。虔敬主義則認為善惡是非白即黑﹐任何與神無關的行為也是屬世的行為﹐教徒應該遠離這些犯罪的誘惑。結果有些虔敬主義教徒變得很極端﹐他們反對跳舞﹐看電影﹐著漂亮衣服﹐遊戲玩樂﹐飲飲食食等一切與神無關的行為。

啟蒙運動

啟蒙運動對神學的影響開始於文藝復興後期的Socinianism﹐這一神學主義從理性主義和人文主義的角度﹐否定所有基督教的教條。不論是自然神論主義﹐或是現代的自由神學派﹐皆可以看到Socinianism的影子。Socinianism的神學觀點包括以下幾點。接受聖經的權威﹐但聖經在無關重要的事情上可以有錯﹐聖經需要以歷史性批判的方法去解讀。神在聖經中的默示﹐不可能違反理性和常識。將三位一體教條打回原狀﹐從歷史指出聖經中沒有明確指出三位一體的教條﹐只具有一些粗略的雛形。三位一體並非核心教義﹐反而令影響我們明白福音的意義。神創造人類並依照祂的俏像造人﹐是指人類擁有神的理性﹐讓人類有另於其他動畫。亞當最初並非完美的人﹐他的自由意志令到他無可避免地墮落。原罪教義沒有意義﹐因為有罪必需是罪有應得。救贖也是沒有意義﹐因為犯罪的補贖工作﹐不可能由旁人代勞。

啟蒙運動鼓勵人民獨立思考 ﹐勇於獨立思考不盲目遵從他人的想法。啟蒙運動和理性主義﹐強調人類的自由性。神為世界定下自然規律﹐人類通過神賜與的理性﹐去了解世界和了解神。 人類不需要聽命隨意發佈神喻﹐通過理性人類不害怕神的無常。不知真偽的神喻﹐臣服於自然規律的權威底下。理性並不只是思考能力﹐人能夠明白真理與公義的能力。人類通過理性和自主﹐就算沒有任何權威的介入﹐透過人類行為背後的自然規律﹐必然也會達致一個和諧的社會。

這三個十九世紀的神學主流﹐正是今天我們神學光譜中﹐傳統基督教派﹐基要福音教派和自由主義教派的前身。三個神學主流的想思理論南轅北轍﹐但也是在解答同一個問題﹕到底現代人應該如何去理解基督的教導呢﹖